At first, he was living the life of a wanderer who was always lonely and didn’t develop at all. He didn’t have the aim in his life and wasn’t determined. He wanted to be a real man and honestly had lots of doubts about his manhood. Paul D has two idols Halle and Sixo. They were the two in whose strength he was profoundly convinced. He feels unsecured, and that is connected with his family. We know that Paul D never knew his father and as a result, he has never seen the example of being a man in his life.
Paul D Garner in the Essays