I got up right away because I was hungry, but Marie told me I hadn’t kissed her since that morning. It was true, and yet I had wanted to. Come into the water, she said. We ran and threw ourselves into the first little waves. We swam a few strokes and she reached out and held on to me. I felt her legs wrapped around mine and I wanted her.
I honour your circumspection. A fortnight's acquaintance is certainly very little. One cannot know what a man really is by the end of a fortnight. But if we do not venture somebody else will; and after all, Mrs. Long and her daughters must stand their chance; and, therefore, as she will think it an act of kindness, if you decline the office, I will take it on myself.
Therefore, (and the difficult thing was not to lose sight of all the reasoning that went into this therefore), I had to accept the rejection of my appeal. Then and only then would I have to the right, so to speak – would I give myself permission, as it were – to consider the alternative hypothesis: I was pardoned.
